Wednesday, October 12, 2011
"God's grace is very often found in our wilderness experience or in our dungeons. It's possible for you to find it in your Gethsemane hour and in your suffering. You may gain no release from the dungeon that has imprisoned you, but you can obtain grace that gives you victory while in that dungeon!" (Kathryn Kuhlman: In Search of Blessings)We must all experience our own garden of Gethsemane in our lives where we completely surrender to the will God and say, "not my will God, but yours be done." Let's look at the garden of Gethsemane, 41 And he was withdrawn from them about a stone's cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, 42 Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. 43 And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. 44 And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. (Luke 22:42-44) There are moments in life you look ahead to what God is telling you to do and you know it will require torment and death to your desires and will. It might even cause some to half heartily serve God or completely walk away. 24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. 25 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it. (Matthew 16:24-25) This is not talking about a physical death but a death to ourselves, our thoughts, our fears, our will, the world we have created for ourselves. In Luke it says Jesus was in agony trying to lay down His will, it's not that He didn't want to lay down His life for us, but Jesus was man and God and in this very moment we see the man Jesus was, just as we are. That's why He was in agony because He knew what He had to do,that is, allow His will to become the Father's will and that's what He was praying for. Jesus is our great example, when we come to the place in our lives that our will is screaming what it thinks we should do we must go to Gethsemane until our will becomes His will and in that moment not only will we grab a hold of His will but we able to tell our minds to SHUT UP, and let God speak! We live in a culture that says, "do what you feel is right, follow your heart!" What happens when your heart lies, the bible says the ways of a man seems right to him but in the end brings destruction. (Proverbs 16:25) We have to realize that God is not interested in our comfort but in our obedience, it is not fun to die to your will, it screams and kicks and yells, but once we see the blessings that God has for us after we lay down our lives we wonder why we didn't just joyfully come and lay everything down sooner. If Jesus himself had to say, "Nevertheless Lord not my will but yours be done," how can we think we are above our great example. So remember when faced with a battle of wills go to Gethsemane and let it go, lay it down, grab onto God's hand and walk through life with Him! I promise you until we lay down our control completely in every area God can not fully use us! Stay Blessed!
Monday, October 10, 2011
How beautiful are you oh God, as I gaze upon your face the things of this world fade away! How magnetic our your words, you speak and it's draws me closer! My heart has found no greater faithfulness, that even as I sleep you are watching over your promises to me. Oh God how is it that you look at me with grace and do not see a sinner but a saint, that you know the very fabric of my making! Lord no one else can see who I am without knowing all my stains and cracks but through your eyes I'm made whole! Holy is your name oh God and lovely are your thoughts. The world may seek to destroy me but you reach out to save! You are the mirror of this life, every lie You know the truth, every doubt You give us faith, every chain that would hold us down You have set us free!!!!! Mere words can never express how deep my love for you Father, to know you and be known by you! The heart can never fully describe who you are and what you do but in my spirit I see the truth! You are life to the dead, You are hope to the faint, You are beauty in the ashes, You are EVERYTHING!!!!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
This morning I woke up early with my husband and decided, "I need answers, I will fast and pray today!" (in my super dignified, spiritual voice). So after he left I went to my room turned on some Jesus Culture, and looked up the scripture Philippians 4:6-7, which talks about how we are to make our requests to God and what happens when we do this. I have a habit of words I'm not completely secure with my understanding of the meaning I look up in the dictionary. I looked up the word supplication, and it's a humble prayer, then I said to myself why would they say prayer twice and just use another word for it. So naturally I looked up the word prayer, and it says, "a spiritual communion with God." I was floored, wow, communion (intimate communication) with God when I come to pray it's like me saying, "Let me prepare my banquet table, I'll layout the finest china, silverware, and the most expensive of everything to come and talk with you!"After reading this I began to pray and speak to God concerning somethings on my heart and started praying with the verse above and that's just what happened, God's peace came and it's as if I heard Him say, "OK, I'll take of it, now just relax and worship me." See when you begin to worship, you can't see anything around you, those things that worried you, those requests you had for Him, the people around you...... everything gets laid at His feet and you abandon the world around you and enter the throne room of God! Hebrews 4:16 tells us that we can come boldly into the throne room of grace and receive mercy and find grace for our time of need! This is what happens as we worship we receive forgiveness and compassion and find unmerited favor from God! I'm not saying prayer is not important on the contrary, we need both, what I'm saying is sometimes we think, "well, I will fast and pray (as I thought this morning lol) and really God just wants us to cast those burdens on Him and just love on Him! I encourage you all to turn on whatever worship music you have or be silent before the Lord, however you worship and just love on Him and let His love and mercy wash over you! Stay Blessed!!!!!! Remember too if you have any prayer request feel free to email me privately and no it's confidential but I will be praying with you! :)