My question to you how well do you know the Father? Are you just in a dating relationship were you visit Him when you can and are in the "just getting to know" stage, but not really ready for the full commitment? I feel like God is calling us to a deeper level with Him. He designed us for intimacy with Him, you break down this word and it's "in to me see". The dictionary says, it's a close association with or detailed knowledge or deep understanding of whatever it is. What does being saved mean to you, is it just a knowing of going to Heaven, or do you really know what it is to be saved? It's not just about God sending His Son to die and rise and come again! It's more than an action of Him doing this! God in His deep affection and love for all mankind sent the most precious thing He had, that He knew only through this sacrifice we could be in Him and Him in us! Hebrews 10 talks about how powerful this sacrifice was, that it only needed to happen once and all we have to do is recieve it.
*****When we understand the extent of what God actually did for us to be with us, your life will change. Those things that you used to love to do or people you used to hang out with will start to my you almost sick.I don't know about you but I don't even desire to sin, and the very thought of something that I could do to break God's heart, breaks my heart, not because I'm perfect but because I don't want to break God's heart I long to be closer and closer to Him everyday. 2 Timothy 2:22 talks about fleeing from the evil desires of our youth, now the youth here is the youth of our Christian walk not our physical age! When we accept Christ we are like a baby (born again) and grow from there! He is saying those things you may have still done in the youth stages of your recreation, flee from, you know better now!
Now this portion here is going to require crowd participation lol, : Close your eyes and turn off your mind, completely shut your mind off, forget about those things going on around you, the worries of your day or week and focus on Jesus right now! Just give him some time to love on you and reveal to you the extent of His mercy and love towards you! Stop dating Him except the ring of the Holy Spirit he has for you and fall head over heels and began to really get to know Him intimately. Who is Jesus, who is God the Father, who is the Holy Spirit? What makes God cry, what makes Him happy, and when you begin to dive deeper into God nothing else will matter!
That last statement I know if you are like me, you shutter at the thought of things not mattering because you want everything perfect all the time lol, but they will never be perfect and once you realize that spending time with the Lord is all that will matter in the end, your heart will be changed!
I pray this post has blessed you and helped you today! May the Lord bless and keep you and make His face shine upon you and give you PEACE!!!!!!